Day 273-January 27th: The roller coaster

I'm sitting at a coffee shop working on this thesis and suddenly I almost break down crying. My life is such a roller coaster right now and all I want to do is cruise along for a while, not chugging up any hills or screaming down any. But it seems as though there is no such thing as a straight and level path in this world. There are a lot of curves, and there is no way to see around them to know where the path will go.